WHAT WOULD I SAY

Note:  My husband and I met on a dating site called blackpeoplemeet.com.  He had some of his music on there and I sent him a message about it.  Also I liked what he said on his site about divorce …he called it something else…DIVIDING FORCE...I mentioned that…he asked me  a question about what I had to say about love,life, divorce and the following was my response to his question.    He showed me on our anniversary that he had saved it.  He said it convinced him that I may be  “the one”…lol   We  wrote back and forth and talked on the phone for about a month and then he asked me out to lunch…We went to a Mexican restaurant in Marietta called Los Reyes and we’ve been together almost everyday since that time….

What Would I Say

What would I say if you look into my eyes?

What would I say if you looked into my soul?

What would I say if you truly saw me?

What would I say if you saw who I want to be?

What would I say if you understood how I feel?

Longing everyday to find love that is real

I don't know what I would say

I don't know what I would feel

I don't know what I would do

I don't know if I will ever experience any of the things I hold true

But what I do know is that everyday

As long as I breathe, I will start each day anew

waiting, preparing, and looking

For he who will know me,

All I that I am and all that I will be,

He who will share with me

His life, his mind, his soul

Together, we will experience

All the mysteries, beauty, and glory life holds,

Together, with God's help

We will ride out all life's storms

Cuddled underneath his wings

Blessed, safe, secure, and warm,

That is what I would say.

What would you say?

JOURNEY

JOURNEY

You...the feel of me...together...as it should be...love, passion, desire, lust, sensuality, eroticism... all lying dormant...waiting to be brought to fruition...waiting...to be shared...to take you captive...hold you prisoner for eternity...in this cell to which only we hold the key...mmmm...I will soar with you...high above the limitations of this world's reality...take that journey with me...a minute at a time...joy, satisfaction, peace, and love everlasting...beyond your wildest imagination...awaits...I know you have heard it all before...but...if there is no image in your mind right now of this journey...no clear picture of how it would be...you have not really heard me...relax, let go, don't think, just feel... anything you can imagine is real... relax, let go, don't think just feel, anything that makes you happy is real ...relax, let go, don't think, just feel, anything you want from me is real...on this journey

JUST THINKING

JUST THINKING

about the sound of the rain beating against the ground

Sweet thoughts of you although you are not around

JUST THINKING

about getting to know you more and more each and every day

Wanting to feel your love in each and every way

JUST THINKING

what is this pull I feel every time you are near?

Thoughts of tomorrow suddenly becoming clear

JUST THINKING

Although rain is falling from the sky today

The sun is shining in my heart from all the sweet things you say

I have never known a soul quite as kind as you

If you suddenly leave my life

What will I do?

JUST THINKING

Will I choose to go on to the next moment in time?

Or will time stand still

In my mind

While I struggle to find the will

to pick up the pieces of my life

and put them back together

learning from the experience 

 as I endure the stormy weather

JUST THINKING

Knowing that all the challenges that come along

because they can not break me

they will serve to make me strong

JUST THINKING

I will then use that same strength to add you to my memory

I will also use that strength to become a better me

JUST THINKING

If there is one thing I have learned for sure

What we give out in this world

Is what we too shall have to endure

JUST THINKING

What ever experience comes about

whether good or bad

There is no doubt in my mind

if we part

One day you will think back and you will remember me

Just you wait and see

You will remember

How it was

How it is

How it will never be

JUST THINKING

I DESIRE

I DESIRE

I desire to FEEL
the TENDERNESS of your kiss

it will tell me what I might otherwise miss

I desire to LOOK
DEEP into your eyes

what I see there will be my guide

I desire to KNOW
the LOVE in your heart

it`s intensity touched me right from the start

I desire to DISCOVER
the EMOTIONS mirrored in your soul

if I can SHARE those
I`ll EXPERIENCE you as a whole

I desire to REFLECT
the STRENGTH of your character being in your company INSPIRES me

to absorb your ESSENCE and to

revel in the rapture,

the revelation,

the summation,

of whom YOU showed ME,

 I  AM

I desire to EXPERIENCE
the PASSION of your embrace
the SENSUALITY and EROTICISM you

reveal with GRACE

 for when we are TOGETHER

we will move and behave as ONE

everyone will THINK it is what we have always DONE

I desire to BUILD
a beautiful LIFE with you
where we both have GOALS and DREAMS
that only have to be a THOUGHT to soon be REDEEMED

I desire to MEET

the INNER MAN dwelling in your SPIRIT
for he is who you really are.

No matter how far you go

to cover him in shallow trappings,

those wrappings will soon fall away
and the WORLD will SEE

the man I SAW, when you let me,

the man I KNOW you will be.

I desire to OVERCOME
the TRIBULATIONS of the world with you

You are my KING
I am truly your QUEEN
together we RULE
our WORLD

Make it as WE want it to be

MOLD it to those

VISIONS we both see

 United AS ONE

There is nothing WE can not do or become

I desire to SERVE
GOD with you side by side
for it is HE who makes possible all I have described

It is HE who GIVES US the

strength WE GIVE to each other
The dreams and visions WE SHARE with one another

LISTEN to me CLOSELY and in your

HEART and MIND you will SEE
YOU AND I triumphanting victoriously

A king and HIS queen
A woman and HER man
TOGETHER

sharing, caring, hoping, building,
molding, shaping, subduing, renewing

EVERYDAY

EVERYTHING

LIFE sends THEIR way

These are the things I KNOW
These are the things that make ME GROW
In my mind and in MY SPIRIT
Open your EYES to me and SEE
open your EARS to me and HEAR
and you will EXPERIENCE all you hold dear

To do that is to know my FIRE

To KNOW my FIRE is to experience all the things

 I DESIRE

As TIME passes

with SECONDS becoming minutes

and MINUTES becoming HOURS

and HOURS becoming DAYS

I can truly say

that in every way

You are culmination of my THOUGHTS in the flesh

You are the man  I could only see as a shadow in my DREAMS 

You are indeed the EPIPHANY  it seems
of  the mate I require and truly the promised man of God

I DESIRE

SOUL MATE

Note:  This was written after a recurring dream I used to have off and on for years…I knew I was dreaming of the man that was truly the mate to my soul.  In the last dream I could almost see his face.  I saw all of him but his face…when he was almost close enough for me to see his face…I woke up…I truly believe my husband is the person I was being shown.  I could sense his height, even the color of his skin (I mentioned this because I preferred men of a darker complexion, but I could sense that the man in the dream was lighter than I usually dated).  I could also sense how tall he was.    I just didn’t know where he was…but I could feel that he was searching for me too…

SOUL MATE

Sometimes I feel like I`m coming apart...my soul aches for its mate...my spirit cries at the way I search for him...HE`s out there I know...MY SOUL MATE

HE who can look into my eyes and understand my desire for him...HE who massages the wounds to my soul....I complement him...HE helps to complete ME...my body is aching and crying out for him...the tears I shed late in the night call out to him...Somewhere...HE too is longing for ME...

Will WE find each other...will WE know one another....will it be in a glance....will it be because I take a chance ...to experience things I’ve never known before...will WE move gracefully into each other`s space...or will WE meet in some strange, exotic place...

Mmmmmm....I feel you.....I know you`re there.....If only I knew where

I reach as I call out to you in my dreams...but you move farther away it seems.....In my visions I almost see your face...waiting patiently for ME to take my place...by your side, in your arms, lovingly seduced by your many exclusive charms...

Where are you....MY lover, MY friend, MY soul mate...the other half of WE...



SHOULD I

Note:  This was written in 2001 right after my ex-husband and I separated and he was asking me to give him another chance, since I have re-married to a man I considered to be my soulmate...that let's you know the answer I chose was no...it is a decision I have never regreted.

SHOULD I
give you a second chance to

break my heart
betray my trust
kill my love
bruise my soul
grieve my spirit

SHOULD I
give you another chance to

understand my heart
appreciate my strength
value my trust
treasure my love
enjoy the woman I am

SHOULD I?